Sorry for the silence these past weeks. They have been busy and not so happy weeks. But here I am again. I just wanted to write what I feel at moment anywhere. And that anywhere ended up being the blog. Maybe something similar has happened to you before.
Sometimes bad things happen. But we have to carry on till it's over. You can't just stop.
My best friend is passing through a very bad moment in her life. And I feel so useless. I feel I can't do nothing to make her feel better. Instead of doing my best to make her happy again, I stay silent by her side. When I say something to distract her, I feel so ridiculous, because it's ridiculous to pretend nothing happens.
Instead of staying strong for her, I'm sinking with her. But she doesn't know.
I'm kind of having a dejà vu of 2011. It wasn't my best year, but not many people know that either.
I have the impression she's so deeply sad. She's actually so deeply sad. I feel it. And that makes me feel so bad. But I can't sink with her. I have to stay strong and help her.
I don't know what to do.
If you're reading this, I just want you to know that I love you, that I know what's happening to you, that I care and that I'm here to help you. Sorry for being so useless, so ridiculous and so weak (that's how I feel). I don't know what I'm supposed to do.